The Back Story

What motivated me to put this information out came from a profound event that happened in my student years, followed by years in the wilderness and then the breakthroughs that were happening to rebuild my own voice.

As a young musician, I was enrolled into a top music college winning prizes and scholarships. Doubt never entered my head and in my mind, I had made it ! But in truth, I was often lacking in confidence. I knew I had talent and I knew I could ride that wave for some time !

When I reached my 3rd year, my voice was changing and throwing up questions. I had good days and bad days and no idea why. Neither was I getting solutions. There were no guy ropes for me to cling on to and I was wobbling to say the least.

What followed was the biggest crash of my vocal journey and a turning point in my life.

I was entered into a major competition that can result in a young singers contract with a major opera company and I was tipped to win it ! I was primed to sing one of the most difficult arias in the operatic repertoire. I sang it well on a good day, but the day of the competition was not a good day.

It was a large and very public event. Everyone whose anyone was there. As I walked on stage and sang the first note I knew I was in a battle. A battle with my voice. My throat tightened, my breathing shallowed and I realised that I had no tools to fall back on. My body went into a state of fright and I was literally frozen in fear.

Although I was singing professionaly, I knew that I was not firing on all cylinders and the years that followed were slow and lonely. I went to so many teachers, trying to find pieces of the puzzle, but I realised that it was inevitably down to me to put all of those pieces together in order to heal my voice.

Thank goodness I took it on, because what was being revealed as I spent hour after hour joining the dots, was another journey. The way I produced my sound was mirroring my internal state. My identity was showing itself through my voice. All my resistances and disconnection was right in front of men and this was huge !

I can look back now and say that this was the more informative and profound journey. It linked to the breath, and how I breathed was more than likely linked to the asthma and panic attacks that I suffered in my early years.

The journey to recovery involved building the physical structures as well as clearing negative emotions which I didn’t even realise were blocking me. From that place I was able to feel a profound and connected place with which to express my voice.

I am now committed to helping singers find a sustainable and correct connection through their voice with tools that enable this to happen.